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Saturday, April 3, 2010

heart hurt...

Copyright tr0s dri lappy tnpa diedit..bb 2 ad prubhan tarikh...

Bnda ni brlaku smalm (1 april 2010)...ak gduh tr0k ngn abg ak..ntah..sma2 slah...dye tduh ak xkeje sdngkn amount gaji sume same stiap pkrja...ak ase memng skit la ble dgr tduhan xbrasas 2...pncanya mcm ni..ak da pnt n decide t0k bsuh pnggn yg bnyak 2 es0k..mak ak pown fham..ntah nape dye tetbe ckp...”adik bsuh pnggan..dye lngsng xkeje mlam ni”..what the f***..skit atie kowt dgr..memng ble korng akn kta ak ni kurng ajr ngn abg sndri tp da 2 hakikat..dye yg mula...bkan ak xnk bsuh...sbar la..ak taw 2 keje ak..sbl0m2 ni bkan ak xprnh bsuh pgi..ntah nape ttbe mood dye gle ckit...ak relax lagi smbl d0k dpn lappy...ble dye repeat ag ayt 2,ak tr0s hmpas mouse ak n cpai tdung...mneruskn pmbasuhn pnggn 2 so dye akn puas atie..memng air mta xpyah ckp la..bkan ak sdih..tp ak skit atie sgt...dye ckp ak xkeje lngsng...krenye pe yg ak bwat bnda kcik la...smpai dye xnmpak...dye xtaw ak brperang ngn minyak panas greng pisng kt blakang smpai tgn ak mlecur..dye xpkir la bnda 2...dye still kta ak xkeje..argghhhhh.....ok then..ak mlas nk mngungkit dpn dye..bia arr dye xtaw bnda 2..xde guna pown klu dye taw..tetbe mak ak dtg..mak ak sndri ckp cmni..”kate nk bsuh esk pgi..xpyah la..’see..mak ak pown fham...dye je..ntah la...ntah cmne mak ak prasn plak ak nanges...ak pown trlepas ckp yg abg ak kate ak xkeje malam ni...da sakit atie..ak memng xpkir la kesan ayt 2 akn bwat ak lagi skit atie...mak ak pown pe ag..mrah la bb pasal keje kitorng nk gduh adik bradik...smpai mak ak ckp pas ni xpyah da bwat..bia mak ngn papa je keje..kitorng sume rest...ak dpt ase abg ak mkin skit atie ngn ak ble mak ak ckp kalau da xnk bwat keje 2,jgn nk tduh2 org len xkeje..snyap jerk...ak trasa dibela la skjap..tp pe yg abg ak ckp wat ak rase nk mnjerit n cmpak je sume2 pnggan 2 kt dye.. mak ak ckp la yg ak keje jgak..bsuh pnggn n everything..tp dye bleh ckp yg ayh ak bsuh pnggan lgi bnyak drpd ak...what???? dye nmpak mcm 2 bb ayh ak bsuh pnggn yg bnyak skaligus...tp dye xnmpak pe yg ak bwat bb ak bsuh pnggan ckit2 tp bnyak kali...dri bkak kdai kowt...memng ak je yg bsuh pnggn...kdg2 la akak yg keje ngn kitorng...Ya Allah..kau je yg taw pe yg ak bwat..memng la dye yg amek order,bwat air kutip pnggn n everything...tp salah ak ke xbwat bnda2 2 kalau dye sndri yg xnk agih2 kn keje 2???dye pkir dye bleh bwat sndri..so trima je la....ak xtaw nk ckp cmne skitnya atie ak...dye xpkir dr pk0l 10 ak start keje..kmas kdai sbl0m bleh bkak...bkan ckit..ayah ak sndri ckp ak mringnkn beban diorng..kalau x 2 orng je yg keje..ayh ak n akak yg keje 2..dye???? tdo tdo n tdo...pk0l 12 dye bru bng0n..wktu 2 kdai da bkak..dye xcnsider lngsng kn keje ak...usaha ak...bia arr..usaha kcik..spe nk nmpak..n ak da dcide..ak nk keje kt luar..ak taw 1 kdai yg mmrlukan pkerja skng ni...wlupun honestly ak xske keje 2,tp ak snggup drpd ak tr0s skit atie..drpd dye tr0s tduh ak mcm2..n ak pown xnk dye skit atie tgk ak xkeje...ak mlas nk bncng ngn parnts ak.bb ak taw diorng msti agk berat..yre arr..ak brundur sbb gaduh ngn abg sndri..bia la..ak mlas nk pnjngkn gd0h ni..sriously ckp,ak xleh nk tgk muka dye pown skang ni..apatah ag nk ckp ngn dye...tp demi mak ngn papa,ak kena bwat2 bleh..ak xnk diorng sdih tgk ank2 dye gduh...ak yakin mak smalam pown da sdih tgk prangai kitorng..esk ak nk ikut mak ak n nk g jmpa mnger kdai 2..ak hope lpas la..kalau ak dad pt keje 2,mak n papa xleh ckp pepe..agpown diorng msti xrisau..bb tmpat 2 dkat ngn tmpat keje kakak ak..ak leh g ngn dye skali..n ak da dcide 1 bnda ag..ak nekad...ak xkn trima 1 sen pown duit gaji drpd mak ak..i will work for free..i’m not working...i’m just helping...

T0k mak n papa...sorry pasal bnda ni..kite taw kite xspttnye gduh ngn abg kn...tp ntah la...mngkin juga slah kite..ntah..xtaw nk slahkn spe2 n xnk slhkn sape2..xpe..kite xkesah brundur so xde sape2 skit atie kn...xslah kan bkorban t0k family kite....i’m so sorry bb bwat kputusan tnpa bncng ngn mak n papa..restui kputusan kte eh..insyaallah...ase skit atie ni akn ilang xlma agie..

T0k abg...mngkin ni jlan terbek so abg xskit atie ag ngn kite...abg keje la el0k2...nti mlam2 kite tlg gak..dnt worry..seorng adik xkn brdendam ngn abg sndri..tp kesan bnda ni lma.... jgn tnya klau kite da xmesra mcm dlu..hope kputusan yg kite bwat ni bleh tbus ksalahan kite n bwat abg happy....

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